My drive in music is towards innovation and evolution. I always aim to make something that hasn’t been made before because I don’t feel passionate when recreating something that has already been done. All musicians play a part - some artists explore new music, some artists make it more accessible, some artists becoming skillful playing established music - and all these part are important.
Being an artist that is focused on innovation means, by definition, that what I make is rarely popular. It can have quality and heart and be interesting, but it’s not familiar and often disorienting, and therefore not popular. The benefit is what I make is uniquely me. I’m not in a mold or predictable and have had the good fortune to be part of the group of American artists that created the breakcore sound. Breakcore didn’t exist before the mid-90’s and we all were exploring a new music form. Last night I was able to perform with a group of artists who make experimental electronic music and I received the highest compliment I could think of - that my music is a part of their artistic history, that without my music theirs would not be what it is.
I did not play my tracks from the late 90’s in my set last night. I played music that I’ve made in the last couple of years, months, and weeks. I’m still driven by innovation to push my music further and evolve. When making anything creative there is a risk when sharing it with the world - a risk of it not being liked, of being rejected, misunderstood. When making experimental music, that risk is higher, and when I’m in the position of having a known history, a catalog that defines my sound, the risk is higher yet.
I don’t choose what I make. I listen to my heart or give my pain an outlet or let my curiosity wander and the creative energy goes through the filters of the tools I’m using and who I am in that given moment, and music is created. Last night I created a set that is a snapshot of who I am today. I risked not connecting with a crowd full of people who knew my old music and it’s always worth it to me to take that risk so I can keep growing. Sometimes it is well received and last night was one of those nights - dancing, smiles, and open minds, the thrill of hearing something new. That is why I perform. That is why I risk rejection and criticism. That is what drives me to keep evolving.
Thanks to everyone for a great night in Ann Arbor and Far House.